i hate it when benjo wants and expects me to be ‘mature’. i hate it that he hasn’t accepted the fact that to err is to be human. i’m human too you know, perfectly imperfect and as much as his ideas dictate him to transform everything to his liking, it’s just impossible. i can’t always be the mature person that he wants and expects me to be. it gets frustrating enough for me to blog about it but don’t get any ideas that i’m being too selfish, too, to accept that he’s a stereotypical male specie. sure, but this isn’t enough reason for him to treat me this way… i’m no willing victim.

last night i was done typing my blog entry but for some reason xanga went crazy and my entry just went kaput!

so anyhoo, good news!!! my brother's gonna finally graduate! yey! he together with 3 of his classmates weren't supposed to graduate cuz they had a problem with their community instructor. mom had to go to their school to talk the CI out to giving 'em another chance. she was really frantic since last week and i had to always remind her that everything’s gonna be fine, that whatever happens, it’s God’s will. i hate it when she's like that. she hasn't been sleeping, she’d be preoccupying herself with household work, cleaning even the cleanest corners of the house, praying ever so fervently but since we found out about the good news last night, she's been sleeping like a baby, well, of course, after going to mass this morning and saying her thanks. sooo, i'm just so happy. this is what i call a really good morning! funny while i'm typing this entry tony bennet's what a wonderful world started playin in the background... just like in those cheesy movies but seriously, i am sooo very happy. i'm happy for my brother and esp for my mom. she's superwoman. i'm proud of both of 'em. it really feels like everything’s a wonder right now.

... mornings, i guess, is a perfect time for us to be thankful for no matter what the circumstances are. it is what it is. it's a new day. new set of challenges and it just so happened that this one's exceptionally one of my best mornings to date!

GLORY TO MY MAN, JESUS!